Tuesday 28 October 2014

CABLE

Lord You know all things, you know that standing by this seashore bring me memories. Sometimes the cool breeze that has travelled past no flora or fauna leaves me a tingly feel that makes one attempt to forget. But as I step on board, the gentle alternating splashes of the waves on the berth gently brings back memories, first the pleasing ones, then the dreadful. But even the blissful memories that the waves bring me are painful – my days of watching cable.
Now an aversion, it was the highest point of a delightful childhood in this harbour city. Between the impatient waits for my turn, the staining of ears and the pulsating feelings of a momentary watch through a small hole, I don’t know which made me look forward to watching cable every holidays. It is not the cable you are thinking. It was live pornography. A movie whose actors were hiding like us!
The city was small and isolated – it is an island – but alive with activities. Everybody knew everybody and could tell who was a rich visitor from the sea. These visitors came very often, and in the afternoon, when only idle women were home, many of them, housewives. Somehow my playmates, who were not more than ten, had come to know that whenever they visited a woman only on windy and sunny afternoons, pleasurable moans and rhythmic movements of naked bodies followed. They – or rather, we – were pleased to watch through the small holes we made in windows… that was our cable. Without satellite transmission, our minds got blurred, covered with the dark screen of pornography.
I do not confess now because I just got a job as a Sailor who will anchor someday on other shores and might be cabled by other children. I confess as I fear my friends still be cabling on larger scales and are now addicted.
I remember one afternoon that remains the seal of my glee then, my grief now. That day the sun was low, the leaves still. The clouds gathered afar and around us were little showers. A visitor came by a house two compounds from ours. Words travelled to our gang faster than lightening did across the gazing Atlantic and before the clap of the thunder, we had expanded the little hole in the window to cable from. We took turns to look and also took turns to listen to pleasuring moans until he came by… Mr Akpan, the owner of that one – room apartment, and husband of the woman we were cabling. He was too surprised to shout. He gathered us with noiseless threats. We confessed with whimpering innocence and he whimpered more than us that were younger.  Mr Akpan called a few neigbours and hit his door with low blows, we helped with harder blows. The wife peeped after the third knock, body bathed in sweat and wrapper loosely tied above her chest. Mr Akpan buried his face at her changing countenance. I cannot remember clearly if I alone held her flowing wrapper or if I had help, but I know we had in had the only wrapper she had on as she escaped towards the shores. Other women followed  behind us as we chased after her; responsible men turned in shock, hiding their faces as she approached them, the jeers increased and I am sure sensitive body parts peculiar to womanhood flapped as she swung her hands to gain speed. Hopefully, the sea washed away her shame, her husband’s pain.
I do not confess because i now leave my beloved week old wife at home. I do not fear the lot of my uncle who got me this job might be mine. I confess that you see the graciousness of the Lord to me, and that He might not afflict me with my uncle’s type of pain.
He is a kind man, see his gentle steps and confirm for yourself! He it is with the pale coloured t-shirt. All the colours in his once brilliant world are now faded. He yesterday lost his wife of ten years… he sent her parking. Three out of his four children were his plumber’s. I was his solace yesterday when the newly repented born-again plumber came home to confess. My uncle has known this plumber for about eight years, and he in turn has known his wife for only a month less. I know my uncle to be a player… perhaps he is a visitor on another shore - maybe cabled a couple of times by children - and caused permanent grief in other men… but today, I watch his drenched soul leave unseen footprints in the sand of my morality.
You may doubt me, but I do not confess out of fear I insist… but for graces: that the Omnipresent Who was present in my past forgives it, and Who is present in my present soothes my fears and Who will be present in my future keeps it safe. He alone can be in all of it since before Him all is ever present. Loed you know all things, You know that I love you…
Tomicity…

    


Tuesday 12 August 2014

FULL MOON…

Golden ball!

Seining you in full splendor

- Sign of His gentle grandeur -

I ponder, and pour

On Tuka and Soma, Kola and Aisha,

If they do not slumber,

But mingle and wander in bonding

Lost in the thick, shadowed places and playgrounds,

Lounging, high on heroic and bizarre tales

Told at the foot of our sage

On this night of thy bright and gentle gaze

Oh golden ball!

Saturday 7 June 2014

RELIGION - HOLY SPIRIT: CHRIST’S REPLACEMENT OR HIMSELF?



HOLY SPIRIT: CHRIST’S REPLACEMENT OR HIMSELF?

I have followed ‘the readings’ in this season closely and I found myself at a loss to fully accept that my ignorance is still plenty! He has enlightened minds in the past, and I’m sure He who has come to teach us all truth will start here with me and you as we reflect.
 I don’t intend to make this lengthy so I will dwell on only these three premises:
1)      “... I will send you another Comforter…”
2)      “If I do not go, the Promise of the Father will not come…”
3)      “… If any man is thirsty, let him come to me!... As scripture says: From his breast shall flow fountains of living water. He was speaking of the Spirit…. For there was no Spirit as yet because Jesus has not yet been glorified” - John 7: 37-39
The first tell us that there have been previous Comforter(s), of which we can say Christ was One. The second tells us that the Comforter is also the promise of the God the Father. The first and second tell us that the Father and the Son have authority over the Spirit… as to “send” Him.
Now the last from John 7: 37-39 is of particular interest. It is clear that He (Christ) was talking about the Holy Spirit Who the creed teaches Proceeds from the Father and the Son. Of major interest in the particular is this: ‘… For there was no Spirit yet.…’
I, in my mortal frailty will infer that there was nothing like the Holy Spirit “as yet”, on the apostles, or on others, while Christ was on earth. As yet, because He only came hitherto to reveal the Christ in particles, before He came, and during his lifetime. “… For flesh and blood did not reveal this to you…” - Matt. 16:13-
This perhaps was because the spirit was domicile in the Christ. He taught with power and authority. He revealed the dark sides of men… the Samaritan woman and the prostitute come to mind, together with the times He didn’t need to hear questions before answering. The story changes as the Christ goes to the Father. What was in Him became available to humanity. All things were, and is still been revealed to humanity! The timid spoke and now speak with authority. Those who could not cast out a demon raised the dead! All these and greater works were done because the latter Spirit was to confirm the Christ and His teachings. This raises a question, fundamental as it were.
Is the Holy Spirit, the other Comforter, the same as the First? He is the Spirit of the First… He groaned in the First to the Father. Is my spirit not me? No. Yes. I attempt, and not attempt to bring in the Holy Trinity. But then why do we attempt to separate Christ from His spirit in our Christian lives today? Christ is on the throne…. His Spirit is with us... Hmmm
I pray this Spirit of truth to enlighten our hearts the more, because I find, once again, difficulty in reconciling this paradox. but then I am a mere mortal, and my ignorance is still plenty! Come, fill the hearts of the faithful… and enkindle in them the fire of Thy love. Amen.

Tuesday 15 April 2014

POETRY: VISIBLE HOPE



VISIBLE HOPE…

Open your eyes to this day of hope
Held up in strands only you can rope
Strong enough to hold up your hopes
Look at the spider; oh! She may give you some hope
See how she spins strands into a webbed home of ropes!

Look around and you’ll find your rope!
For scattered around are the many strands of your rope
Or could it be inside like that of the spider?
Patiently, web together your small, strong strands
And you’ll surely spin a fortress, like a spider’s home

The Lord is near, our hope of hopes
Our Fortress, He’ll call us to our eternal home

AKPE TOMBARI 25/11/2012

Monday 7 April 2014

Poetry: I APOLOGIZE



I APOLOGIZE
I owe too many apologies but this one i can't delay… My Love I am sorry.
It was natural. We never said words. I knew we were made, one for another; is bread not for tea? Together, hand in hand, we strolled, to the envy of many. Forgotten so soon how the sun stood behind us, behind Ottamiri?
It was there I did it all; celebrated, an armature. There I charmed many; illuminating, it was De Lumen. Can't forget Ojukwu, yes, he was Ikemba. But I left, unrecognized: The Nation Campus Life joint best sports reporter. Then I felt I had arrived; why do I need you?
"You need to learn," was a brother's well done. It took me years to get there! It was painful, but I had to. I had to break free to get to thee my Love.
I apologize to thee Creativity. For the many years I poisoned many…  Scribbling things without form.  Do not hold it against this sinner. Bend me to your will and I'll learn.
From the river banks I sinned; on this hill I apologize.
Take me back, forgive what society made me. I still wish to stand behind you behind the sun behind still waters. This time I need you my Love to do it right. She is a berry… rare specie! Help me tell her friends, that Tom is sorry and needs her.
From the Tom that loves you